1.
And everywhere i go, i look for you, its not that i want to see you, cuz thats the last thing i want, to break down in front of you, but its almost like instinct, a natural reaction. i want to find you, so that you can find me, want you to see me smile, see me cry, see what you left alone to die, i just want to see that you're not happy without me...
2.
The mirror is shattered
Don't worry I couldn't
Stand to look at you anyways
The floor is a puddle
Full of your blood
Don't try and blame this on me
You lay there lonely
But I reached out my hand
Lets clean this mess up
If you love me, and live
Ill superglue your mirror, but
You can still bleed for me
3.
help me,
why do you
treat me this way
why do you
always have to pretend
i dont like pretending
what ever happend
where did you go
why is this happening
i need to get away
far away
maybe you will follow me
that would prove you love me
would you please follow me
dont say you're sick of waiting
im sick of making you wait
im running away
please chase me
i need you to
save me.
4.
i finally was the best at something,
for the first time in my life....
i felt happy. i felt like i accomplished something.
then you had to go and one up me.
well of course. youre a part of this effing world.
and you are all playing this stupid game.
a game full of judgement. full of hate.
you people pretend to be happy. you skip and sing,
but you dont shout with joy off skyscrapers.
you are sad, but you dont cry. or talk about anything.
you are numb, emotionless. worthless.
thats why im not in this game, not here in this world.
im in my own little fantasy, and honestly its hell there.
but truth is, its so much effing better than here.
with you.
5.
It's a simple little mind game
Lets run around the fields
We'll pretend we fell in love
Lets play along - -
Staying out late
Jumping off buildings
You would catch me, save me
Lets play along - -
I hear the record spinning
The game is just beginning
Baby if you take my hand
We could play along - -
6.
if he ever wants to come back, my arms will be open as wide as possible to catch him, and ill make sure not to let go this time, if I ever got him back, id never let him leave, id rather die than to watch that slow shadow walking away, saying goodbye, no more this time... you better not come back
7.
no looking back, no more crying, get that silly kid outta your mind, let this be, walk away, go somewhere else, a better place, a better time, fall asleep and hope for dreams of being happy, without him. if only it was this easy, theres no speeding up the healing of a bro//ken heart..
8.
your number is worn down buttons on my telephone, there were too many sleepless nights of me dialing your number, and once upon a time you answered, and we would converse until the sun would rise, and there are times like tonight, where you dont pick up, and i hear a lonely busy tone, echoing through my brain, and ill lay awake, crying, dialing, just wishing you would have answered like you [ used to ]
9.
you told me you wanted to show me something beautiful, && to take your hand, so i willingly climbed the tower, and yeah it was beautiful. but so was i once, i never planned on you pushing me off once we reached the top, look what you've done to me
10.
In you i find a comfort, and no matter how many times you hurt me, make me bleed, make me cry, no matter what you do, all you have to do is simply say "hello, im sorry" to have me back in your arms, back holding on, not wanting to let go
11.
i probably shouldnt tell you this, but im here waiting. ive always been here waiting. and if you cant see that, then open up your eyes. realize i will always be here, so you can go ahead and stop looking for someone perfect, im imperfect, but im perfect for you, ill always be the one who loves you most, and that will never change. and when you look back, you will realize the mistake you made, and rush to the airport, fly on a plane, search your heart out, but you wont find me, by then you will have already killed me, i just wished you could have realized this sooner...
12.
&& i hate you more than ive ever hated anyone, i want you to die, so you dont kill me with your memories, you are a hypocrit who shouldnt be alive, and when i die i dont want you at my funeral, i dont want the murderer to see his victim lying still. havent you done enough already? just go on your own way, you cant hurt me anymore, i promise
13.
your just a liar, your good at your game, you made me believe that your lies were the truth, i just kept letting you lie to me, and to tell all of my secrets, and here i am broken, you dont even care, and i tell one of your secrets, just one, not even a tiny portion of what you have done to me, and you dont want to talk to me, every word you say is a lie, now you tell me you hate me, but dont worry, i can see through your lies, go ahead, hate me. i love you too.
