Inside Me

Can't you see?
That this is not me
I'm trapped in this body
Wanting to be set free

It's a struggle everyday
To do what I got to do
Waking up in the morning
That's something that
I shouldn't have to do

People say to me
'Why don't you smile? '
I just laugh and say
'Would you smile?
If you had to go through
What I have to go through everyday? '

My poetry writing
Keeps me sane
I just write down how I'm feeling
In them, I'm usually to blame

What have my parents done?
To deserve a son like me?
What have I given them?
Apart from grief and misery

There's to much anger
Inside of me
There's to much hatred
Inside of me
There's to much confusion
Inside of me
There's to much pain
Inside of me

So kill me with the love
That you can't express towards me
Come on kill me!
I'm begging you...I'm on my knees

...you know you want to!!

By Jay Basey © 2007