Sorry to let you go

It hurts so bad to let you go... when anyone asks me if I'm okay I nod yes, but inside I'm screaming no. Though I know the future will take it's toll on my heart, the pressure from it all... and knowing sooner or later I'm going to fall apart. I can think of so many reasons to walk away from this now, but to say g'bye, and to say it's over I just don't know how. Our paths are so different in so many ways, but we have to go through the worste just to get to the better days. Time never seems to go by so slow, I don't know how to mend a broken heart, let alone let you go. We've gone through changes, we've said all of this before, but now it's like we've changed so much, we're not the same people anymore. I can only hope for the best for you in whatever you choose to do, as for myself I'll be incomplete, because there is no me without a you. I'm in such a horrible position, I tell myself I don't need you, yet I find myself still wishing. I cant hide the truth, itil eventually catch up to me, out of all the things that I've learned I've learned that this is not who I want to be. I block out the images that scramble inside my head, knowing how I can never take back the things that I just said. I'm walking away from something that I need, but I know you cant get a scar unless you actually bleed. I know I cant have you, which kills me to know, and though I'm alive I still feel six feet below.