I'm holding it all in
trying hard not to explode
my minds racing fast, my feelings are what I'm trying to hold
I'm shutting my mouth
and occupying my mind
I'm holding the tears back, trying to leave the bad times behind
i imagine things different
then how they really are
i imagine a picture perfect life, thats my every wish on every star
i don't like to yell
fight or cause a scene
its hard to be the main girl, but no problem behind the scenes
i try to keep a smile
on everyones face
its like they compete with me, almost like a race
everywhere i turn
theres someone trying to defeat me
trying to bring me down, hurt me and beat me
they try to take away my happiness
my excitement and goals
its like life is sucking the life out of me, into one big giant hole
I'm holding on
with the last bit of strength that i have
I'm hoping i can move on, and not go back to the life i once had
