If these are your true feelings then I'd say that you are not really sure about this guy and maybe he's not the one for you.... unless you are reading more into his friendship with this other person. But it sounds to me like he is breaking your heart and thats not fair to you. Talk to him, does he know how you feel? If you can talk to him, let him read this.

This is very sad and emotional and I can feel the pain within. Well written.

If this is true and you feel allof this its because something isnt right...women dont get feelings like that out of nowhere we usually have a reason...and from what i have read i see why you feel like that because i would feel the same way...and whose more important you or her...your his girl if thats just a "friend" he should take your side.