I don't know

I don't know what to say
I don't know what to write
I'm sad today
I dreamt of you last night
Little by little my talents are leaving
Little by little I've stopped believing
But something's wrong
I feel different today
That sad song is coming on
And the sky is all grey

I feel distances that really shouldn't be
And in the back of my mind I think of you and me
I feel like crying but I won't
We had promises to keep, but we don't

I can't speak to you
Tell you my mind
I feel left by my friends too
Again I'm feeling left behind
I don't want to be like this
I want to be happy,
what is it I miss
aren't I winning
Something's really hurting inside
I'm so tired of being confused
Smiling with stubborn failures pride
my feelings so abused
No one can tell me what to do
And I'm to hurt to ever turn to you.