Despite it all

Despite the smile

Despite the attempts

Never in their love

Will I fit in

I can pretend

That I'm not set apart

Truth is though...

I'm nothing like the people

I wish would Love me the most

I'm not like my family

And in this house

I play no part....

It's always me

I do something wrong

It's ALWAYS me!!!

Someday

I'll run

Run so far away

And disappear

Some day they Might miss me

Someday they might love me

If I am not here...

Someday soon..

One of them might pass

Amid never will they know

What I wish we could have had

My heart bleeds for a family

That seven year old me once knew

But damage has been done

And there's nothing I could

Ever

Hope to do

Even though, I am not part of this family

That I hold so High

Won't let them see me cry

And Forever I will scream

"I love you guys"

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