A change in the wind

Not long has past, since the day you left me,
All alone thinking this is how it is to be,
I cried and bled, all of that for you,
Thinking to myself, how can this be true?

A couple of arguments pushed us more apart,
Like a object flying through the air, just like a dart,
I thought that was it, I'd never see you at all,
I tried almost everything, even to give you a call.

It had come to a point where I almost gave in,
And almost committed, one of the greatest sins,
I held the blade, right over the vein,
Thinking one good swipe, maybe a little bit of pain.

The blade did move and the pain was there,
Then I stopped and thought, no this is not fair,
If I did this, I wouldn't only be loosing you,
But my friends, my family and all whom care too.

I cried, I sobbed, and my wrist hurt a bit,
I couldn't do it, and then a smoke I lit,
Sitting there bleeding, thank god it wasn't too bad,
All of the thoughts, were making me sad.

The pain turned to anger, and then into glee,
Just for the fact, I didn't do too much damage to me,
Because somehow I thought, no there's a better way,
To talk to her and listen, to what she has to say.

And now that we've talked, things are better between us,
Still not too sure, why I kicked up that big fuss,
It's a time for change, and to put aside our bickering,
Because reality wise, the big clock is ticking.

I feel things are going back, like when you first met me,
To talk, to hang out, and maybe a movie to go and see,
I'm glad things are better, and it may take a while,
And somehow you did it, last night you made me smile.