Not Knowing

I have fallen
got back up
no thoughts of knowing
where my life was going

I ranaway
to make things better
not knowing that
i'd only made them worse

I can't sleep
I can't eat
For unknown reasons
I can't be me

Wild and fun
spontaneous and true
faithful and loving
with so much to do

I sit here
staring at the wall
thinking of all the things
that made me fall

Not knowing
it'd get better
realizing it now
regrets forever

I lost the battle
long ago
of a fight i started
not even to know

I'd lose the onees
close to my heart
Meet someone
inlove from the start

No love for me
not knowing the age
a life of not knowing
what love will ever be.