Scars of my Survival

Sometimes I can't find a reason to live to the next day
Sometimes I feel paralyzed
Like life is passing me by

I'm crying out loud
As the rain hits my face
No one can see the way I feel
Invisible to all

Beating myself
Hating myself
And no reason comes to mind
To stop these thoughts

Looking back
I have nothing to be proud of
It seems to late
Too late to try

I've let everyone down
Around me
Including myself
Completely useless

Look at these scars
And my bruises
No one can see them
Inflicted by me

Not one band-aid can cover them all
No doctor can take them away
For the days I survive
They will always be there

Can someone tell me
Tell me what to do
Where do I go
To make this pain go away?