You Know How Much I Miss You

I just want you to love me,
I still love you.
I told you I would forever,
and that you told me too.

Starting a new year without you,
will never ever seem right.
You used to always be there,
now life seems dark even in the light.

I hate you for hating me.
but I will always love you.
I miss way you looked at me,
now just my dignity you chew.

Now all I hear is to deny,
our friendship, knowledge, and love.
You shut yourself out of my life,
my feelings, I want to shove.

You told me I was beautiful,
I was your shining star.
But now what am I? Don't want to ask,
without acknowledgement I can't get far.

Sitting there, you look at me,
daggers in your eyes.
Wanting to kill wanting to hurt,
but keep on telling me lies.

Moving on is not working for me,
but has worked from day one with you.
You went to her while I had none,
the only thing I had was you.