I am here

This the pain that I feel so deep
keeps me awake, I can not sleep
Inside this body the sadness grows
But the depression, just never shows

The anger and the hate control
What is left of my desolate soul
The emptiness that I feel inside
Is more than I could ever hide

I sit in dark, knees under my chin
Struggling with a war, that rages within
Mascara streaked face, blood stained hands
I wish someone would try to understand

I am alone, but, I am not afraid
To admit, all the mistakes I have made
I know the things that I have done are wrong
But I am just looking for a place to belong

Someone who will listen to what I have to say
Somebody to assure me that things will be OK
I need a person to hold me as I cry
As I pray to God to just let me die

I am that person, I am here
To catch every falling tear
To hold you when you fall apart
I love you with all my heart

I take your hand in mine, I pull you away
The silence unbroken, nothing to say
I hold you close in my embrace
Caressing softly your mascara streaked face

I am by your side day and night
I promise everything will be alright
You will get past the pain you feel
I am here to help you deal

In this moonlight, I see inside your soul
Listening to secrets you want no one to know
I promise to try my best to understand
Never once letting go of your hand

I wrote this for both me and my husband. We both suffer from depression, due to the loss of a loved one, but we have found strength in each other, our love is strong enough to get past all of the pain, I will forever be by his side, just as he will always remain by mine.