It changes

Everythings messed up
everythings turned to crap
and I have no idea
how to deal with that

it's like sometimes I feel
so hopless, so lost
and like I'll never get through this
no matter the cost

and other times it's like
I wanna do this, I wanna try
and I'll do whatever it takes
just not to cry

and then sometimes
I recognize that it can get better
but I don't wanna do anything
so it doesn't matter...whatever.

but my attitude about things...
changes constantly
so I'm starting to wonder
is there something wrong with me?

maybe it's nothing
maybe im fine
could just mean I have a little trouble
making up my mind.

*sighs*

I dont know...what's it matter?
what am I gonna do?
I'll just bounce back and forth
until I see this through...

I guess