My inner Thoughts

Where do I come from?
Why do I feel so bad?
Where do I go from here?
I feel so depressed and I do not know why.
This is only a dream,
I will wake up soon,
Maybe at noon,
WAKE UP NOW!!!
WAKE UP PLEASE!!!
You know I will get down on my knees.
I feel so helpless
I feel sometimes I really don�t need help
But I really do!
I feel regretful in all I have done
To my family!
I know how to change this
I know in my heart and soul
But what I don�t know is simply my anger, and depression�s control.
Do I even know this in my heart; I�m questioning that right now
Will I ever know how to control my emotions?
Well, that�s a great question.
Do I know in my heart?
It�s easy to not control my emotions
But I need to learn how.
Anger and feeling suicidal can not be the answer.
Neither is tearing things apart or yelling
Am I dwelling?
I have no good relationships in my life
Me and my moms is slowly deteriorating.
Me and my dad�s is okay.
Me and my church community is okay
What else?
I need to love someone
Is that someone me?
I think it is well I answered one of my questions!
I think before I change anything I need to learn how to love myself
And also think I�m changing for me not just to make everybody else happy.
I feel like I�m dying inside and out slowly but strongly I feel this.
I feel crummy all day and crummy at night I wish I could in my heart turn on a light
To brighten me up!