Realization

Restless nights, impossible to sleep.
Dark shadows all around me,
they silently crawl and creep.

Afraid to move or make a sound.
Huddled in a cornor I quietly stare,
they've come to get me and I hear my heart pound.

I wonder if anyone will care,
when they notice that I am gone.
Thinking to myself "Of corse not ", makes my heart tear

Doomed never to see another dawn.
The realization of sanity's twisted world,
I was just another worthless pawn.

No way back, I'll never be the same.
The fight is over and I did not win,
I lost, although it was not a game.