All about you

I feel sad when I am not with you
I feel pain when you are not here and when your arms are not wrapped around me
I could fall asleep next to you and stay in bed with you forever if possible
The nights I lay alone and try to sleep, try to stop thinking about you, I feel fear
Fear of what might happen to you
Fear of what would happen with me if I do not have you anymore
Fear of when I would get a call telling me you did not make it out of the fire this time.
You laughed with my worries, told me that it was all safe, your collegues would save you if my terror would happen.
Why then am I still afraid that you might get hurt
Why then do I worry that your last moment will not be spend with me?
I fear I will regret that day then forever
I can not imagine how I would feel when you are gone
When you are away from me,
lost forever in flames.
You are all I want,
You are all I sometimes have
I need you and I wonder sometimes,
if I do not have you anymore, what would happen to me?
All my thoughts, my fears and my hopes, my dreams are about you - it is all about you.

ps: this is about my BF, he is a fireman and I fear he will get hurt one day without me knowing about his last moments. It is true that his collegues would do everything in their power to help him, but I still imagine him being stuck in a blazing fire with no way out...