Take Back The Night

I want out of this life
To no longer feel pain
Cuz while I'm alive
Theres just nothing to gain
I cut my wrists
And smoke pot all day
Buy dope off the streets
Cuz theres no other way
I often drive drunk
Usually with friends
Ive hoped that I'd crash
So it'd be the end
Driving from a party
Drugs in my car
My friends are all there with me
So close but so far
I had too many drinks
Like I always did
But Ive been drinking ever
Since I was a little kid
Red lights all look green
Stop signs just dint count
Cuz we re having fun
We re all hanging out
I knew I shouldn't do it
But the decision wasn't mine
I was going crazy
All out of my mind
We crash into a Big Rig
Glass shatters every where
The pain is overwhelming
But I no longer care
My consciousness is fading
The darkness closing in
Ill never have to deal
With myself again
I wake up the next morning
Hooked up to a machine
Tubes go to my body
"Im Alive" I want to scream
But Im all aloI'm
I can tell somethings wrong
I ask about my friends
Then the whole truth dawns
All my friends were killed
While Im here inI'm bed
The guilt is taking over
As thoughts run through my head
I killed everybody
I never thought I would
Id take back that night
If only I could
I pull out all my I.V.s
I roll right off the bed
A nurse is running down the hall
As I smash my head
I feel my life fading
This time its for real
Since I am a killer
I deserve to be killed