Dearest mother;

A hundred words i want to say
things I'll save for another day
time goes by my heart stands still
i want to change this need to kill
not a person, just a thing
a feeling that your name does bring

a hatred past a feeling new
something i cannot explain to you
i want to be the girl you love
the one that tells you that you're above
above all things, all activities about the
thought of amenities
i wish you knew that i do care,
but when you talk all i do is stare
i don't speak a word for aim afraid
of all of those past days.

a fights a fight i know it's true, i just
wish that i trusted you. you break my trust,
you test my heart, and today I've made a decision to part.
not from you not from dad,
but from all the bad days Ive had.
I'm letting go I'm breaking rules,
but not so I'm away from you.
Ive made my choice my choice is this
i want to be better than him
i close my eyes i pray aloud for
all Ive lost and what I've found.

i take a break i am alive,
tomorrow is another day that i will
survive.