Heartbreak poem again

Crying myself to sleep again, it seems the tears never end.
i dig deep and try to be strong, but my heart is barely holding on.
i feel numb again and i take this blade, the more i cut you can see the life in my eyes fade.
into the blackness of this cold world i stare, i should have known my heart was gonna tear.
i thought i was ready to take it, but now im trying my hardest to make it.
my soul slipping its grip, my heart barely beating pumping blood out of the rip.
i close my eyes and say a prayer to god above, please lord, all i wanted was love.
so please take me with you and end my pain, lord im so sorry for my bleeding veins.
i couldnt be strong anymore, i couldnt pick myself up from off the floor.
forgive me for all i've done, i only wanted to be with my only one.
and if it is that i cannot be saved, please send me to my firey grave.
let me burn and pay for my sins, the pain will never end.