Dead

I've got a picture in my head
looking back and I am sad
imagine how it could be
together, with me

don't want to go on like that
every moment feeling dead

cold skin
white face
stare look
no breath

my heart doesn't beat
motionless I'm in the seat
just a gray piece of meat
which no one needs
but which still bleeds

the flies around me
and maggots haunt me
the bones breaking through
the flesh's tearing too

don't want to live my life like that
F#%§ !!! It was no life, I'm dead