Im stronger than this

Im trying to be someone
that i just can not be
Not matter how hard i try
That person is not me.

Suffacating in my thoughts
Wiping away about a million tears
Because this has to be the worst
Out of all the years

Ive been Pushed around, hurt
And bashed
An my poor little heart
Has been brusied an smashed.

Despite all the sadness
That i have lingering inside.
Im standing here trying to be happy
Chooseing to stay alive.

No matter
How hard it will get.
Ill try my best
To forget

All the bad things
That happend to me
No more new cuts
Scars is all you will see

Im choosing to live
For all who can not
My heart is gonna keep beating
No Matter how much i want it to stop

I do not believe im pritty
I hate myself more than you no
An this hate doesnt do anything
But continue grow.

I miss all the people
That actually cared
But i need to open my eyes
Because they are still there.

Tonight Sarah Emily
Will go to sleep
But no longing
Will she sit there for a hour an weep.