Not being needed

How do I wipe away this feeling of jealousy?
Theyre my friends, but what about me?
They have all the attention, but I should be happy for them
Do I just want to be in the spotlight, to be the gem?
I am so conceited, and I dont know why
I feel so unneeded that I just want to cry
Is it that I dont trust anyone, or am I just blind?
My lack of getting attention just makes me unkind?
I hate this feeling and want it to go away.
I used to do so much, and now Ive gone astray.
I cant feel my heart, why am I so jealous?
Is everyone above me? am I no longer zealous?
How can I live my life, being envious of friends?
Sometimes I wonder if not being needed ever ends.