Missing key of life

My entire life l have looked and checked
for that one thing missing
but now it seems all clear
father l need you
l have longed and desired
just to ride ma bike for the first time
to speak those first cherished words
just so you can hold the memories
dear to your heart as momma once did
where were you then in the moment i needed you most
through troubled times l would shed endless tears
waiting on your warmth and comfort
only to wake up to a pillow wet as river