Wish you were here

I have to hold back
thoughts of you
before I break into
tears.

The death of you
made me face all
of my worst and
unknown fears.

How in an instant
you were there
and now totally
out of my grasp.

Its only been a
couple of months
but it seems like
years have past.

The worst of all of
it was that I saw
you when you died.

You lied!!!

You said that we
would always be
together and that our
friendship would never
venture far.

Now I just look up
and wish you were here
on the first evening
star.