Harder To Breathe [Triquatrain]

I'm so afraid to cry and please don't ask me why,
I'm just not ready to leave -
I'm attacted to you and I don't know what to do,
It's just too hard to believe.

I'll be leaving to soon and I might miss Graduation in June,
But please know I'll try my best.
I'll try to be there for you; it's the best I can do -
But first, let me get this off my chest:

When I'm scared at night and nothing seems right,
It's the thought of you that comes to mind;
Then the monsters go away and I can fight for the day -
But I know I'm just buying some time.

We're living on borrowed time and perfect rhymes,
That just don't seem to make much sense.
We were running the track without looking back -
And now we're just jumping the fence.

But the tears will soon come and then I'll come undone -
Yet, even then, the pain won't be relieved.
I'm done with the hurt; I just want this to work -
It's just getting Harder To Breathe.

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It is a quatrain poem in tri-rhyme with a specific rhyming pattern (see below). Lines 1 and 3 have internal rhyme whereas lines 2 and 4 do not.

Rhyme Pattern:

(a,a)
b
(c,c)
b

(d,d)
e
(f,f)
e

(g,g)
h
(i,i)
h

. . . and so on.