Dieing Inside

I'm tearing myself to pieces
Don't know where to run or hide
All these damn faces and voices
Full of contempt and pride

I don't know where to turn
I feel trust in but a few
I shall not burden them further
I'm slipping closer to the edge

There is a pain inside
Fire and hatred
Eats at me constantly
I'm losing my feeling

I'm going numb inside
I stop caring
For those who I care for
it tears me apart

I'm not meant for this
I cannot do it
yet my soul is dying
Though my lifeblood lives

Out of control
My thoughts fleeting and scattered
My love and my hope
Falling apart but not shattered