I have a secret

I don't love you
i never did
if i did
i can't recall the burning ember
the plighting woe
the sheer annoyance you
caused

I hold on because
you hold on
and we hold on
for sakes of holdings
of forgettings
of knowing nothing
more

Cringing as i reach to you
pushing away and i
am not affected
because if i were you
if you were me
if we were we
i would not
love you