My Battle

For so long i have been filled with anger, hated, darkness, a sense of intense rage to anything and everything. It didn't matter if you where an object or person. I didn't care for no one but myself. I live and walk with no emotions no heart not even a well being for myself.

All that changed one day like I always knew she was going to be there but didn't. She was the love on my life the only person with no ties to me that ever gave a damn about me. She changed me in ways that I never even realized some took years to affect me. She turned me into a better person without me even knowing. I destroyed her turn her into all that bad she was never meant to be. She was my angel I was her demon.

Over a span of 5 years I learned to control my rage that lives inside me all though some days it's got the best of me. It was a sense of power the ability to hurt someone and have no remorse for my actions. Over time I fought it and realized I have a choice. To be that person and hurt everybody around me or be that other person I am now and protect the people around me that I care and love. I just don't have it in me anymore to be that bad person i once was. I just don't have it in me anymore.

Then i meet her and everything I did to all them girls she did to me. I know now how they felt I know now what they thought. I don't know how to get to her I don't know if i ever will. she is a mirror image of my former self. None of you can ever understand what I mean..