I was so scared.
and it was my fault.
i know that.
I knew your conditions.
and i knew that it would be fun.
and i sacraficed
not just you and me,
but my little brother too.
and i know i didn't mean to.
and we all wanted to..
So we did.
and it was fun..
until we were almost done.
and then..
the fun came to an end.
and thats when the fun..
seemed like it was never there..
like the fun was ran out,
by scared,
a lot of scared.
not in you though..
OH NO!
you are too worried to be scared.
to worried about what everyone will think,
too worried about them.
to even consider us.
i get it now..
you didn't even care.
you never did.
you just wanted it to get out,
and for it to stay our little secret.
how can something,
that will change our lives forever,
stay our little secret?
So my emotions change
from time to time..
yeah its my fault,
and I have learned to cope with that,
but what I havent learned to live with,
is the fact that you wanted to lie.
that you wanted to lie,
about something a lot bigger than that,
you aren't me,
nor is she,
And you will never know how i felt,
on that night.
That night,
of misery.
