Living A Lie*

I'm so tired of pretending,
that every thing's alright,
and that I don't cry every single night.
I have to pretend that I'm OK,
so no one will suspect a thing.
I wanna die,
just to get it over with,
I'm tired of waiting for so many things,
waiting to see Eric again,
waiting for school to end,
why is my life all about waiting?
I think suicidal thoughts everyday,
even when I'm walking down the hallway,
with my fake smile pasted on my face,
making everyone think
I'm really happy.
When I'm not,
I'm so tired,
of living this lie
someone please help me,
find a truth somewhere,
anywhere in this life.

**Look I know I can't write worth a shit but I'm really not that great with words so if you guys would comment and give me some advice on how to get better it would help a lot**