Everyone Goes Away

I loved him and he loved me,
We were best of friends there for each other just like friends should be.

I meant the world to him and he meant everything to me, we were so close,
we always let each other know how much we cared when it mattered the most.

We made a promise to each other that no matter what we would be friends forever,
We kept our promise until we could no longer be together.

Someone killed him someone took him away, when he was only 16 years old,
The pain will go away in time, at least thats what I was told.

I was only 15 years old, I didn't know how to deal with that, I didn't know how to say good-bye,
I lost people before, but this time it was so different, I didn't know this kind of pain, all I did was cry.

It took almost a year before I could open my heart fully to someone else,
I was so scared of losing some one, so scared of that never ending pain, I just wanted to be by myself.

Then I met this kid, my first love, He swept me off my feet,
You know the feeling of butterflies in your stomach and when your heart always skips a beat.

I thought for sure me and him would last forever because I have already felt so much pain,
I knew if I lost anyone else I would go insane.

I was wrong again because we didn't last, but once again this was a different kind of pain then I had felt in my past.

I ended it with him because I thought it was the right thing to do,
Some one tried to rape me while I was with him and even though I did nothing wrong I still felt like I was being untrue.

How could I be with someone when I hated me, I hated everything about me,
So I had to lose him, if I don't love me, I can't fully love him you see.

So that was another chapter of pain that happened in only a years time,
I lost my best friend, my first love, and I hated me because of someone else. I have kept all off this pain to myself, I just kept it inside.

Almost two years later I once again fully opened my heart,
Now here I am praying to God that we don't have to be apart.

Like before the story ends in a different way, this time I believe that he loves me and I think that I love him, But he is lock ed up so we can't be together,
He has a few months but with every thing that I have been through it feels like forever.

There are so many people that come in and out of my life but every time I get close to someone I run,
I find away to get rid of them, I end our relationship or friendship by hurting someone.

Everyone asks me why don't I just stop running and try to stay,
What I say is simple and easy because everyone always goes away.