Last Goodbye

The day has come
what i want to do is almost done
siting and contemplating suicide
thinking whether or not i want to be alive
i cant imagine a future for my self
its just the cards that Ive been dealt
or whether what I'm doing is right
but i can no longer be bothered to fight.
Ive been counting the days go by
waiting for the days to stop that i cry,
and i know everyone Ive ever been close to has gone
but this time its gone on for too long
maybe I'm thinking to fast
thinking anything my imagination can cast
but when UV never felt so alone
and theres no where you can call home
i think its about time
to recognize this sign.
I know you never meant to lie
And i dint know what you'd do if i die
but cant you just give me this one last thing?
a proper chance to say goodbye.
You tried your best i know
bet Ive never felt so low
I'm as low as anyone could go
and it just goes to show
you cant lie to cover up what lies you told
you just dint know what the future holds
and I'm to scared to wait and see
what that future holds for me.
I can not think of one good reason to stay
but cant my last day be today?
I'm stuck in a deep dark tunnel of depression
That keeps staring me in the face with no expression
i wonder if this is happening to teach me a lesson
not to trust or love
and when push comes to shiv
i can feel myself falling.
When knowing no ones there to pick you up
you want to lie there
not wanting anyone to care
and i thought of so many ways
i sit and think for days
I know your sorry and I'm sorry too
but this isn't because of you
its because of me
but please look
cant you see
that i promise you i did try
but this is my last goodbye.