Tonights the Night My Old Life Ended...

Tonights the night it all begin

Tonights the night you came to me with tears in your eyes and your hands against your chest

Tonight the night I hear the word that destroyed my life forever

With tears streaming down her face, she sat down next to me. And before I could ask why she was crying she told me this "Remember that no matter what happens to me i want you to know I will always love you wherever I am and where i go forever I will be in your soul "

She then took a deep breathe and began to explain "I have something I need to tell you, and it going to be hard to understand but you have the right to know I have breast cancer, they dont know if I will survive."

I felt me heart stop and my chest wench up with pain how can this happen. I watch my life slowly go down the drain. Tears form in my eyes and slide down my cheek. For the first time in my life I want to die.

My energy flows out of my body and the happiness fade away. How could God do this to me?? What did I do wrong? Why are you taking away the only person that ever loved me?

I feel her presence leave me there in my room. So she could tell the rest of the world about the killer called cancer that has consumed her breast.

As I sat there by myself my mind began to wonder into my past...My mother the one that never cried, cried a river of tears. The women that seemed unbreakable finally broke. The women that never gave up a fight finally quit.

The darkness surrounds me as my mother turned out the lights in the house. I clutch my pounding head while held myself tight. Wish someone else would be there to love me tonight.

I felt like such a child wrapped up in a little ball trying to protect myself from the monsters in the night called reality but I knew even at my age I did understand that nothing was ever going to be the same, the person I was that day would never be back. For tonights the night my old life ended...

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My mother got breast cancer Dec 14, 2004 but started treatment 2005...it changed my life forever.