The only way to heaven is through hell

For so many years
I believed cutting was my way out
It was my personal release
From my numb state

Every night
I would find that sweet silver blade
Run it along my skin
And watch the blood form

It was such sweet satisfaction
It me feel so much more
Through the cuts I saw my emotions
I saw what I didn't want to feel

But one day I cut to deep
The blood came too fast
And I could feel my life slipping away
I could feel myself dying

Thankfully I lived
And after that day
I realized somethings
Some things that I hadn't realized before

There were people who cared
And people who wanted me alive
I didn't want to die yet
I wanted to live my life

I began to become normal again
The nights that I cut became less frequent
I was becoming my happy self
I wasn't depressed as much

Now I hardly cut
Once a month at most
My arms are almost clean
So are my legs

I plan to live my life to the fullest
To respect myself
To love myself
And to just have fun no matter what happens