A gun and heartbreak

My finger pressing firmly against the trigger of this gun.
all thats happened, nothing can be undone.

My soul screaming so wickedly within, i keep the gun pointed at my head, i still remember all that was said.

"I never loved you, and you were a mistake," thats all i heard, thats all i could take.

The voices grow within my head telling to end it all, they say "she helped you up, just to make you fall"

I start to believe as i start to retrieve all the memories of us, i still cant see where it went all wrong, she doesn't give a fck.

i thought it was real what we had, and to see her say the things she said just makes me sad and mad.

soon im overwhelmed with great emotions of heartbreak, i cry uncontrollably to know that im just a mistake.

i loved her with every part of my soul, and she took my heart and left a hole.

a black hole with no more love for myself, i take this gun and load some shells.

point blank i close my eyes, i scream out loud my torment cries! i squeeze the trigger............click.....

nothing fckin happens....i must have gotten blanks....