Reminders of you

I know pain takes time
And I keep playing that I'm good
But remembering you
Can put me in a depressed mood

I thought I saw you
Standing right next to me
Only to take a second look
And find no one to see

I thought
Maybe he just walked away
Wait- that can't be you
That realization made me sway

Then I had a dream
Of a letter you left behind
You voted me "best athlete"
When it should've been you in mind

I woke up happy
To recieve the award
But then to realize
The price of my happiness was something I could not afford

Some days I can live
Some days I don't want to
But I just try to move forward
As best as I can do

I was thinking of you
And my phone began to beep
It was turned off
I had to have been asleep

I asked if it was you
No, it couldn't be
But my phone beeped again
Were you messing with me?

*Weid sense of humor, Cody!*