On Bended Knee

If you could see inside my soul
I'm afraid you'd turn away
The pieces aren't quite as whole
As they were yesterday.

I am my own worst enemy
It's been that way for years.
I do things wrong, then feel bad
But still fail to fight the fears.

I tell myself to get over it
To move on and try again
But I'm warring with myself
So I can never really win.

When will the chaos please stop
When can I gain my soul
I'm so tired of being a reckless case
Whose lost all self-control.

I want to do so much better
But I find myself tangled in bad
When will I realize it's harmful
And run from it all like mad?

I'm down on my knees, head bent
Praying for forgiveness again
I feel like I'll never do the right
But those are the thoughts of sin.

So I look to you for an answer
And pray you see my despair
My heart has left me condemned
But I know that you must still care.

That's why I'm hoping your love
Will outweigh the things I have done.
I want to start anew, stop the bad
And say it's a battle I've won.

So I'm begging with my last breath
Please notice this trodden down soul
I need you now, (though I've said it before)
I want...no I need....to feel whole.

I'm sorry for what my past says
And what the present still sees
But I promise I'm trying harder
That's why I'm on bended knees.