Baby, I think this is just kind of a letter from me to you. I have no other way of getting this through to you. Then through a letter. Because I have so many things I want to say. But I can't find the words to describe the way I feel. So here I go, trying my best to get this across to you. You know I love you, and always want to be there for you. And I'm trying to help you find yourself. But baby, while I'm trying to help you find yourself, I'm hurt along the way. And it's so hard not to cry. They say, the guy that's worth your tears won't make you cry. But I think that's just a big lie, because every guy will make a girl cry, one way or the other. Wether they know it or not. I know I have made you cry before. But the most tears falling, have been from my eyes. I have been so lost without you. I haven't talked to you for a week. And I'm scared. Because your in a gang, your the leader. And I don't want to lose you. Because I can't lose the one I love. And I can't lose a part of me. I mean you make me whole. Make me laugh when I don't even want to smile. Everybody says I can't depend on you to make me happy. I don't think I do, I just want help from you. I remember the last time we talked. I cried. We were arguing. I hate it when we argue. Everybody tells me to just let you go. But I can't. It's like nailing jello to a tree, impossible. You make me pursue my dreams, keep my grades up, and keep me happy. Remember the promise you made to me baby? I promise I'll always be here for you. Wether we're together or not. Wether I'm dead or alive. I'll always be right beside you in everything. And the promise I made to you? I won't let you become your dad. Baby I tried so hard!! I really did. But you pushed me away. We were together for 10 months. Your my longest relationship. We wanted to last a year. Baby I'm not trying to make you feel bad or anything. I'm just trying to get across to you what I feel. I want to ask you something..is there anything you want to tell me? I mean like, anything you want to say at all? Even if it hurts me. I want to hear it. Because I need to know. And you have a new girlfriend. I'm trying to be supportive, but it's so hard. You tell me you love her, and all I can think of, is you use to tell all your friends you loved me. And it just kind of hurts to know you'll never say that again. And I'm sorry if I hurt you. I never ever meant to. I wonder if I'll even see you next year? My grandma asks about you, asks if I have talked to you. You know how hard it is to tell her no? That I have no idea if your dead or alive. Your her favorite. But that doesn't really matter. I guess this is just pretty much all that I wanted to say, and that I love you.
