Tell me why

I am lost and I have nothing to say
I am not ready to start in a new place
To look upon another tiny cute face
someone tell me that I am wrong for feeling guilty
There will be no child living with me.
There will be no child living in me.
The hurt and guilt can not be explained
there is only one way it can change.
that is not with the words it OK..
the only way it can change is if it
once again.
not understanding why now it isn't OK
when not even 3 weeks ago , it was OK
i am not scared of the things i cant do or
the things i can give , cause all that matters
is the love i can give..
nothing to say , other then it was once why
can't it be again?