True Love

I'm not afraid to die, this is not one of my worst fears.

Dying is a natural thing that will happen no matter what.

What i fear the most, more than anything on this earth.

Is not just dying, but its dying alone without love.

If i was to die today it really wouldn't matter to me.

The only thing is that i have never truly been in love.

Ive thought i was a couple times but couldn't make it work.

Now this could be because I'm not meant to love.

Or it could be that i haven't found that girl for me.

It could also be that i dint know the true meaning of the word.

What does the word love actually mean.

Does it mean sharing your life with someone you have feelings for?

Does it mean sacrificing things you like to do for that special someone?

Does it mean you have strong feelings for a certain person?

Does it mean you w ill do anything for that person to make them happy?

I believe that love is a combination of all of these things.

I believe that if you truly love a person you will sacrifice some things for them.

I believe that you have strong feelings for that person and you always want them happy.

I believe that in order for love to work you must be willing to sacrifice.

You must be willing to share a part of your life with that person.

You must have strong feelings for that person and only that person.

You should be willing to do pretty much anything for that person.

Now i have been in relationships where we have said we love each other.

We both thought we meant it at the time. And maybe we were in love.

But out of all the relationships neither of us truly knew what love really was.

Maybe if we did then we would have lasted and still been together.

I have made mistakes in my past and i cant change them.

I want to feel what love is like. What true love really feels like.

I don't want my past to interfere. I don't want what i did back when i was younger.

I want to be happy. I want to feel loved. I want true love to find me.

I want to love and be loved back. I want to sacrifice for the love of my life.

I want to try my best to keep her happy. I want to share my life with someone.

I guess all i want is love. True love. Love that is everything i talked about and more.

There will be tough times just like any other relationship but i want to go through them.

I just want to love. But most of all i don't want to die without knowing what true love really is...