LETTING GO OF SOMEONE I LOVE

There are so many times
I've tried to make poems
from unwind times of my days
came from nothing but just a false emotions!
but not this time..
i dedicated this to the one i love..

I can't call this a poem either an essay
maybe its a mix up, and this is
the saddest poems I've done
It's really the way i feel right now
and it takes time to get over with this feelings..

Love is so stupid, know why?
cause every time you tend to love someone
who doesn't love you
you cry for someone who doesn't even cry for you!
often time, you can't love back
the person who truly love you..

but what if someone will love you..
like no one else can do
and of course you feel the same way for him
what a magical feeling right?

Being with the one you love
and spending your life with him
is maybe the great things ever happen to you
but what if theres no forever in his eyes..
the future isn't clear for the both of you
and the consequences of loving him is..
putting aside the feelings of others
should you have to fight for him?

What if? the one you love is already committed
oh, cut the word what if...
sad to say that the one i love is already committed to somebody?
I really don't know what to do..
don't know if i have to follow my hearts desire
or should do the right

Theres no other way
i know i have to go and say good bye
but know what?
letting go of him seems so hard to do
i know i will never love the same way again
but if i don't do this
I will be so selfish and unfair for others

Its just like yesterday
when we separated and let each other go
but for me, it seems like years..
i hate myself cause seeing him walking away
makes my heart torn through and through
i wish i could just make him turn around
so that he can see that its not easy for me
and how the tears falls down from my eyes

As he make a step away
away from me.. its not only him who left me
but also my heart, i give and bring it to him as he go
but he doesn't know it
his heart is full of anger for me! i know it
cause i can't fight for him
the way he fight for me

I don't know if falling in love with somebody else
will ever happen to me again..
how i wish that the nights
of shedding tears for him will end soon

I am always jailed with his love and memories

And someday if our path cross again
i wish on that time
i will be brave enough
to tell him how much i really love him
and i hope that the time is right for us..
for him to love me..
and for me to love him
and we have the courage to fight for our feelings!!