My Suicide

Dedicated to my dad, wen we went through all those hard times, i still love you dad, and i alwayz will!

All my life i've been living in fear
wishing i could be anywhere but here,
i just want it all to end
cause i'm sick and tired of playing pretend

Tired of putting on this stupid mask,
this fake smile my hardest task.

All i want is a better life,
but i guess that wont happen so i'll use the knife.

I go to the kitchen and pick it up,
slide it against my wrist, let my skin errupt.

The blood spills and hits the floor,
i begin to feel weak and sore.

I look to the counter, my letter still there,
i wonder if the person who reads it will care.

Its not just a letter or a suicide note,
but a letter that my heart wrote.

A paper that contains all my pain,
so intense you can become insane.

I know its dumb, but i couldn't take it anymore,
death was my only way out, my only reward.

No one is to blame, only me,
because i wasn't strong enough to fight as you can see.

But don't worry, i'm going to a better place,
that way all these hurtfull memories can be erased.

I look at my relfection, there's tear's in my eyes,
knowing that my whole life has been noting but lies.

The room is spinning, i'm starting to fall,
but even though i'm dying, remember i love you all!