For an eternity i watched you,
it felt like and eternity anyways.
every thing you would do
every breathe you took
made me want you.
your sweet face turned me on
your muscles i just couldnt take
i was so infatuated it hurt to breathe
i felt like a child
a little girl with a crush on older guy
you were out of reach to me
there was no way to you
a maze with a dead end
then i fell
i fell deep into the nothingness
with nobody to save me
i screamed for help
but nobody seemed to care
i decided just to give up
nothing mattered anymore
my life was shit
life had given up on me
so i returned the favor and gave up on it
i was walking away from life
then i felt someone pick me up
they tossed me over their shoulder
who is this?
who dare bother my darkest hour?
i just want to die
leave me the hell alone and let me die in peace!
i struggled and fought
but they just held on tight...
you held on tight
you...the one that never paid any attention
why?
why now?
you would have saved me so much pain
i hate you
i hate you
but i love you
