The Real Me

Buried in my heart are the feelings that I keep hidden.

All the hurtful things you've done to me over the years

Bring tears, that I have been hiding from you, to my eyes,

I can't hide the pain, not anymore

I'm tired of biting my tongue, so scared that I will hurt our friendship or your feelings

The things I need to say have been bottled inside me now for years.

The lies, the deceiving, and the confusion.

I can't take it anymore!

I have to let you know, with every mess up you get closer to losing me!

I am supposed to be your best friend, but you aren't telling me what I need to hear.

Why am I hearing something I should be hearing from you first from someone else?

Last night I finally told you the truth!

Last night I finally broke free!

I was finally able to tell you what I really wanted to.

There was no hesitation, no fear, I guess I just got fed up!

I finally was able to, after so many years, let you know how you made me feel, how much you hurt me, and how much you mean to me.

And for once in my life I was able to tell you

How close you came to losing someone who you claim is so important to you.

I held nothing back.

There I sat completely exposed to you.

Letting you go would be hard if I had to do it, I really don't want to,

But I know that letting you go would be easier than having you breaking my heart with every lie you say.