This time, this place,
This life, this day,
This loneliness just wont go away,
I broke your heart and ended mine,
How could I have been so blind?
He came from nowhere,
Misty as a memory,
But my eyes were cloudy with jealousy,
That girl he was with;
She was better than me.
I realized in that single moment,
A part of me would not let go,
My first love how could I forget,
The way it was when we first met?
He was so kind, so right,
The only good part of my life,
But then things started to go wrong,
It started with the loss of my virginity,
I gave up my childhood,
And had to grow up fast,
For otherwise I knew I would not last,
He was not the same man that I fell in love with,
But somehow he always made it right,
His deadly sweet words ended my pain,
At least until I saw him again.
He was no longer perfect, no longer right,
That was when you walked into my life,
You saved me from my darkness,
And made me live again,
But then he called and I died again,
I could never let go of his love,
It's crazy, I know,
But my weakness was his strength,
And he knew it all too well,
So I left you to be just a memory,
But you had left you mark in me,
And so I could never forget,
How it was whenever we met,
My tortured soul had found some peace,
Without you I am just a shell,
A girl who cries for the life she gave up,
And who could never hope to find a love,
Like the one she had once known,
With a man so kind, so right,
Whom I had dragged along with my pain,
But had stayed to help anyway,
He knew how I felt, he'd been through the same,
And he made me feel beautiful once again,
Though I know I cannot be his,
I still have hope for the love he gives,
I will just be friends if that is all I can get,
But I know that I will never forget,
The sleepless nights with thoughts in my head,
Of a distant man and his bed,
Or the too-short days filled with laughter and stolen kisses,
Or the evenings of heady caresses,
To wake up in his arms is what I want,
To end this empty loneliness,
To live a life worth living,
With a man I can hold,
With ups and downs, tears and laughter,
But above all else,
Forever love.
