Too Much

Why do I fight him?
He's done nothing wrong
It's almost like I need it
Maybe to feel real

Do I pick them?
Or does he cause them?
I don't want to hurt him
I know I need to stop

Teach me how to do this
Walk me through it
Do I have reason?
Can he put up with it?

I love that boy
I can't lose him
Not over something I can control
I refuse

He means too much
Too much to let go
Too much to give up
Too much to give in
But not enough to change myself