I did everything i could to make you fall in love with me
i tried chasing you and leaving you be
i pushed you away and even said things that weren't true
and at the end of the day all i could still think about was getting you
i put on the face were feeling and right from wrong was not an option
i felt like my dream of us would stay in my mind not thinking about everything we've worked for i was leaving behind
i threw away our trust and was convinced your love for me was lust
i broke the one thing that would keep me here with you
now the key to my life is thrown away and i cant even be a state near you
back in the little white room which drives me to insanity
if i would have just held on to the love you granted me
then i wouldn't have to pretend right now that everything is OK
and when you ask me it i just reply and say
happiness is not in my vocab
and wouldn't be for while
i struggle with words to type to make you smile
and knowing talking to you makes thing worse not worth while
i am leaving you so telling you things to make me look better is not what i want to do
because i hurt you and i admit it and theres not a thing i can say to fix it
:(
