Alone

She isolated herself these past few days
at first angry about the isolation, upset that her phone was not ringing
people forgot about her, or worse people did not want to bother with her
distant this long ~ she suffocates

now comfortable with alone
thinking of someone she wished to share this alone time with ~ she could think of none
alone
she thought it was a good time for a little face-to-face with herself

she missed him so much
she could not feel oxygen her blood stream
each minute became an eternity
she feared to her marrow that his life was so much better without her

she feared rejection
would not survive more pain
alone time would serve her well
she would convince herself
over and over
isolating was a good thing
she knew she was lying

alone she could let her guard down
she had no one to keep her
spirits up for
remain positive for
give love to

alone
she could
not
exist
in a room
by herself