Lost the fight

My heart is breaking,
my body is aching.
my head is spinning,
i am not winning

tears roll down my cheek,
why am i such a freak.
my pain will never end,
my heart wont seem to mend.

i take out the blade,
my vision starts to fade.
i cut deeper,
and i begin to feel weaker.

there's a knock at the door,
as my body drops to floor.
every one stares,
but i don't care.
cause i lost the fight,
on that dreadful night.