Big black hole

I keep getting pushed into this deep black hole
And it doesn't feel good at all
I just want to get out
I want help
I don't know want to do
I don't know what's wrong with me
I just want help
I don't want to feel like this
I hate it
The only time I'm really happy is when I'm with him
I love him so much
And he's the only one that makes me happy
I need help
And I don't know what to do